Waiting For Godot

I think the theme of my life lately has been finding contentment. Contentment in what I have, in who I am, in where I find myself at various and sundry times. Too often lately I have found that I am not content and this leads to all sorts of difficulties. I do the wrong thing or don't do the right thing (which are not the same). I depend on the wrong person or mistrust someone I should place my trust in and just generally end up making huge mistakes to my own detriment.

I'm not quite sure what it is I should do but I seem to be waiting for something to happen that will be a big blinking sign that says "DO THIS RIGHT NOW" The problem with that sort of thing is that it never happens.

~sigh~ I know what I am trying to say but it isn't coming out quite right tonight.

I know God said, "Be content" and "Wait on me" but I swear neither of those commands are my forte. Then again, that might be the issue right there.

Vladimir and Estragon are still standing under that tree. They have no idea who Godot is or when he is coming, but they have stayed under the tree (at least for the duration of the play). They however, wait in vain. Godot never comes. Christ, however, has never left me. Perhaps I can take a lesson from Vladimir and Estragon and just wait until I notice He is right here with me.

Lord have mercy on me, a sinner.

Relevant Reading
Waiting for Godot
Interview with Elder Thaddeus of Vitovnica